Blue Mind

You know there are those days when you feel like everyone wants you out? I felt that hazy upbringings again. It secludes me to the farthest pits and recaps the habilitations that everyone doesn't want you there or you feel like a third wheel. A sorta mixup possibilities that depressed me the whole day. Some of the few noticed this, but I shrugged it off while some didn't bother to care. The past few days has been a combustion of everything. I felt like dying, needed to get out of here, rethink the situation, or possibly runaway. Understanding this phase made me realize the inconvenient truth about everyone. Friendships were drifting away or maybe I was drifting away. It sucks how life changes the way you are now and before. Like you least expect it when good things come to an end. Whether its meant to be or not, its over. Sometimes the friendships I have with others is hard to keep up like I feel as if I lost someone. Not just that, but I feel ignored. When they sense that presence, they invite you but that just makes it worse, making the whole situation frustrating. It made me feel like shit. The whole meaningless effort becomes a habit. Ever since this year has started, friendships became bottomless and everybody drifted apart. I got involved with new experiments but that always made me wonder about such things. Sometimes I became depressed and the other times I was feeling extrememly happy but most of the time, I was always depressed. Just like she said, my happy chemicals are all gone. I miss those days where I didn't care for shit of how I looked, what people thought, and the future. Reminising the past is just like a day passing for the future. Living a life that is tiresome can sometimes be annoying and frustrating because its something that you don't know what you need. Blah, I've gone off topic here and there but that's all I've got to say










The best things in life aren't things